Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Am I Making A Difference?

Have you ever stopped and wondered, "Am I Making a Difference?" Lately, that question has been on my mind. As a Christian, not only do I want to make a difference, I'm called to make a difference. Then, on top of that, I have been called to be a teacher. This is a profession, that until this year didn't realize how terrible some children's lives are. I often wonder at the end of the day if I am making a difference in their lives?

I desire to have people know that they are loved and that they are important not only to me, but to our Father in heaven as well. In my job, it's so hard to do what everyone says a Christian is suppose to do. I can't just openly talk about my faith without serious repercussions. So, I'm left with trying to love on my students in a way that they notice a difference in my life, so much that maybe one day they'd look back and wonder what was different about me. Then I wonder, "Am I Making Enough of a Difference?"

I often think about how I treat my friends. I love them very much, but sometimes I forget to make a phone call or to send an email during the week to let them know that I care about them. I know how important it is to me and how much it means to me when my friends let me know they're thinking of me during the week. I feel as though I fail to show them Christ's love during the week when I don't make a point to contact them during the week. I fail them as a friend. I wonder, "Did I Make a Difference in _____________'s Life This Week?"

Then, what has lately been on my heart is "Am I Making A Difference Through My Prayer Life?" I am a firm believe in the power of prayer. I pray all of the time, but do I pray enough to "Make a Difference" in the lives of others and in my own life? How much do I need to pray to "Make a Difference?" I've seen the power of prayer at work in my own life, but what about the people I pray for that I don't see on a regular basis? Am I praying hard enough?

I desire to make a difference. I strongly feel like that is why I was put here on this earth. So often I wonder "Am I making a difference?"