Tuesday, August 15, 2006

very weird

I am sitting at home today thinking about how weird it is that next week when all of my colleagues go back to work, I won't be. To update those of you who aren't sure why I'm not going back. My husband is in the Marine Corps. In February he passed the BAR Exam, thus he is now being activated by the Marine Corps so that they can utilize him as a JAG Lawyer. This requires us to relocate to Virginia for a little bit. We were suppose to leave in August, but there was a little mix up and now we're leaving in November, but needless to say, I won't be a here a full school year to be teaching.

So, anyway, I think I've realized that I'm bummed about not having a class to get ready for right now. I mean I knew I'd miss it, but I'm so excited about this next adventure with my husband that I didn't think I'd realize how much I missed it...does that make sense? If not, oh well...

I love watching children "get it" for the first time, whether it be reading, a science experiment, how to do a math problem, etc. Children make the profession amazing. Knowing I'm not able to go back right now, has proven this to me. I think the reason I wasn't so sure I'd miss it right away was because of how jaded I was about the politics involved with teaching. I had no idea how many outside influences swayed my opinion of teaching. But, I've come to realize now, it's not the teaching that was being swayed, that has always been my joy, my passion. It was all of the "other stuff," that unless you're a teacher, probably doesn't make much sense.

Didn't mean to go on a rabbit trail, my point in all this is that I dearly miss preparing for a class right now. I want to be in a classroom setting up and getting ready for the school year. I know God has me in this place for a reason, maybe it be simply so I could see how much I truly love teaching, or maybe it's for another reason. I don't know at this point. All I know is that something feels like it's missing and now I know what it is.