Random Thoughts....

Lately, I've been feeling like the only people that understand me are my friends back home in California. It's very hard to be so far away from them all. I am sure I'm just going through a type of homesickness or some emotional part of being pregnant, but lately I just really miss the people that know me well. The people who just have to hear me say one word to know if I'm really doing alright or not, even if I try to say I'm alright, they know I'm lying. They listen to me, they're patient with me, they pray with me, they love me, they miss me, they make sure that after long days of being alone, I'm doing alright.

I was really discouraged by the message at church yesterday. I know it's not fair to compare the church we're attending out here to my church back home (mainly because it's fairly new and still establishing itself), but I was just thoroughly disappointed with the teaching yesterday. They attempted to address the question, "Where do we go after we die?" and personally I think they did a down right awful job. I'm not trying to be judgmental and I know it is probably coming across that way. It was just frustrating. I felt like they were saying things about heaven as a matter of fact, that we won't really know until we're there. Then to top it off, we all watched a video of people being interviewed about the question I listed above. There was one guy on there that broke my heart. He was an alcoholic and because of that fact he said he knew he'd be going to hell because he didn't see himself being able to change. Do you know what happened after that? PEOPLE STARTED LAUGHING!!! The people in the church were laughing at this guy's response along with several others. It was disgusting! How can the leaders of the church possibly think that their church is ready for this message when it responds to those who are lost and unsaved by laughing, no wonder people say that "the church" is hypocritical. Our hearts need to be sincere when building relationships with others and showing them the love of Christ. Anyway, sorry, I'm going off now. It just frustrated me and was very discouraging.

I'm excited to say that I booked my level 2 ultra sound today. This ultra sound is the one that helps to determine the sex of the baby. It's a little later than I had hoped, simply because they were booked up the wazoo, but our appointment is on March 2nd. :)

I start physical therapy tomorrow. Turns out that my baby is sitting on my sciatic nerve...quite painful. I'm hoping that whatever they have me do tomorrow or whatever they do to me will help.

I'm excited that Lost is starting back up again on Wednesday. It gives me a little something to look forward to, but I will definitely miss being with all of my Lost buddies back home and going to our weekly Lost parties. The suspense is killing me...

These are the random thoughts of today...