so silly

I am in the process of finishing my last two units to clear my credential in California. I think this is the silliest thing. I mean I guess I understand it, but whatever...it's annoying.

About, eight years ago...wow I feel old, I started college as part of the first cohort to go through BTEP (blended teacher education program). Basically, this program was designed to help you get your bachelor's degree and your credential at the same time...so after four years, you'd be ready to teach, instead of having to go back to school for your credential. Sounded like a great idea at the time, but what I've come to find out since I graduated is that when you take the extra 5th year to complete your credential you can basically graduated with a cleared credential, instead of a preliminary credential. In being part of BTEP I am short the units a regular credential program would have given me. I took all the same classes, did all the same work, put in MORE hours in the classroom than the average credential student and yet, they are still telling me that I have to PAY more money to take MORE units, just to clear my credential. Ridiculous.

All that said, to make my point when I say I'm so over this independent study class I'm taking. It's just so much busy work. I'm halfway through it, but it's like pulling teeth to get me to sit down and do it because it's soooooooo boooooorrrrrrring! I've already learned all this stuff, but all the classes that interest me did not fall under a category that counted as units to clear my credential. Anyway, I'm trying to get this all done and mailed off by the end of this week or the middle of next. It's possible, but I need to find the motivation.

And the Verdict is....

we found out that we're having a baby GIRL!!!!!

So exciting!!! My husband and I went out yesterday, after we found out, and bought some of the cutest little clothes. Yep, she's not even here, and she's already getting spoiled!!! :)

Anticipation...

Have you ever thought about the word ANTICIPATION? I have felt a lot of anticipation lately in several areas of my life. I have also had several conversations with people about things that are anticipated....so I decided to write about it.

Anticipation is defined as an expectation or a hope. It is a noun.

Things I've been anticipating lately:

~my level II ultra sound appointment
~our future move to Rhode Island and where we're going to live
~my parents upcoming visit to Virginia
~my workout time
~my phone conversations with friends from back home
~my weekends with my husband
~the planning of my final trip back home before the baby comes
~the baby coming
~our future duty station
~finishing my last two units to clear my credential (before the baby gets here)
~getting our paycheck
~when will I be back in the classroom teaching
~spending time with the Lord

I am stuck in a place of wondering if anticipating things is a good thing, a bad thing or a pointless thing. I mean sure when you anticipate something it's usually because you're excited about it, but at the same time, maybe it's because somewhere deep down you're worried about that something, which God clearly tells us is unnecessary. Either way, if it's something you know for sure is coming...which, by definition, you must if you are able to anticipate it (expect it), than is it pointless to even think about it in such a way you'd say you were anticipating it? These are just some random thoughts that have been floating through my head lately. I'd love to hear people's feed back on this topic.

In the mean time, I am excited about tomorrow because tomorrow my husband and I will be finding out whether we will be having a daughter or a son in July. I'm very much looking forward to this exciting time and this ultra sound has been much anticipated...