200 Days

Day 200.

That's a lot of days.

Here's are reality right now:

The end is in sight, but I'm tired.

I'm exhausted.

I feel guilty for feeling so tired. I've been looking for someone to be able to help with cleaning the house, but I haven't found someone yet, but even the search process feels exhausting. The struggle is real.

This is an emotional weekend for all of us.

Today we celebrated Hudson's birthday at school after his field trip. Hudson requested banana chocolate chip muffins for his "cupcakes" for school, so I stayed up last night and baked them for his class. He was so excited. His teacher sure knows how to make the kids feel extra special on their birthdays. She has this little critter that dances and sings happy birthday to them. Then, she has each student write a letter and she makes them a birthday book and she puts a personalized banner on the whiteboard for each student.

Tonight is the Father/Daughter Dance, would have been Madison's last one as an elementary schooler. Madison has been a trooper about this and I think I'm more emotional about this one than she is. She is such a special girl and Alex surprised her today at school. He sent her the most beautiful basket of flowers and the school, bent their delivery policy to let her feel special today since Alex wasn't able to make it for the Father/Daughter Dance. She was so surprised and carried the flowers with her all over the house once we were home.

Hudson's birthday is on Sunday. I'm doing my best to help it be as special as possible because he's so excited to turn 7 years old, but no matter how much time and energy I put into the day, I'm not able to make up for the absence of Alex, Hudson's hero!

My Oil Team is at a beautiful retreat this weekend and I wasn't able to go. Don't get me wrong, I am so thankful to be able to stay here with the kiddos on such a big weekend, but I also am bummed to not be with all of my friends that feel like family as they plan for the rest of the year and grow in their leadership skills.

I'm feeling like I'm at the point where I'm just going through the motions and not able to give 100% to anything because I'm just so exhausted all of the time.

I've been through this enough to know that we're at the point where there are amazing highs and crazy lows, but let me just say, for the record, I am so ready to have Alex home and our family complete. I miss my best friend like crazy and just want him here.

Okay...enough of that. Thanks for listening. I'm good. We're good. It'll all be good. Just one of those days ya know!

Anyway, here are some quick updates, since I apparently have been lacking in that department as well.

Madison is having a fantastic competition season. Her next meet is next Friday bright and early. She just has a few meets left...so crazy how fast this season has gone by.

Hudson is still playing tennis and golf and LOVING them both. I recently posted a video of him at golf. He's improving so much and really enjoying it.

Hudson has started baseball season. He's on the 8U Dodgers. He's having a blast and having to learn quickly, as his team has a good mix of newbies and veterans. Opening weekend is in March!

We bought a new car last weekend. I successfully used my Special Power of Attorney...that was a first for me. I've always had one, but never needed it, until now. We bought a 2018 Niro Plug-in Hybrid. I'm still getting use to it and learning all of the the bells and whistles it has. We traded in our Prius to help buy this car. I am excited about the 110 mpg that it gets!

I have a few surprises up my sleeve for this weekend to help Hudson feel extra special for this birthday.

I'm starting to think about what we will wear for homecoming and planning more details for our upcoming vacation once Alex is home. Sooooooooo excited.

I'm busy working and educating people on how to kick toxins to the curb and having a blast doing it.

I'm getting closer and closer to my fitness goals. The gym is my sanity right now and keeps me going.  I find that it helps me keep my stress in check (most days) and it's the part of the day I really look forward to.

So, I think that is it for updates...hopefully we'll have orders soon and then I can update with that information as well.

Alright....the floor isn't mopping itself, so I am off to go finish cleaning the house. Until next time...